08 February, 2008

Me, Myself, and I

So, let me start this blog off with a background. I am in my 20's, living in Utah State. I grew up in Pennsylvania and moved to Idaho for college. After deciding that time was moving way too fast for me, I moved to Utah to work until I figured out what I wanted to do with my life. I really do love school, but I can't decide what I want to do. I took the fall semester off and am currently taking the winter semester off, but what I really want to do is go back to school. I am making really good money as a back surgeon's office assistant. I am respected and liked. I made a verbal commitment to the Doctor that I would stay with him until I moved away due to marriage or babies or whatever. Currently, I am single. This is possibly the happiest I have ever been in my entire life, right now. Not because I'm single, but because I feel like I have finally started to make decisions of my own. I am living my life the way I want to and not the way I feel I should because others will judge me if I don't live up to their standards. I have always had a boyfriend from just after I turned 16 until July of last year. I am a very loyal girlfriend, but when it's over, I let it be, until more recently of course, but that is a long story for another post. Being single is a little newer to me, and I think that I like it, though there are more times than I like to admit that I just want someone to hold me close and tell me that they care about me. I think that everyone wishes for that sometimes. I think that my hobbies, were I able to afford them, would be ice skating (not that I'm any good), and reading all day long, and soaking in sun. I love the heat that the sun gives off in the summer. I wish I could keep it all year round.
So, this blog was inspired by a few people, my sisters of course, my brother, who died last year and had a blog that no one really knew about...he did his best to distance himself from the family often...and a girl at work whose blog I love to read. I haven't decided if I will share this with the rest of the world yet or not. I guess I'm kinda worried that it will turn into more of a venting blog than a "this is what's new" blog. Either way, I'm keeping a low profile on it for now. Who knows, maybe someday, I will be killed in a freak lightning strike and someone in my family will stumble across my blog and will understand why i was struck by lightning, cause God knows sometimes I wait for the bolts with some of the things I say! :)